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Lately I’ve
been realizing that I’m living in a constant state of stress…I think it’s not
just my problem though, I think it’s a problem that everyone has…life became so
stressful. We wake up, we go to work, we come home, we eat something, we watch
some tv maybe or read a book and then it’s time to go to bed again…and at the
weekends, we don’t do that much either… some people party a lot, others
prefer to stay home to “relax” and stress out…but isn’t this all dellusional?

I’ve
realized that even it’s weekend, I’m still under tension…I’m giving myself
stress!

And why?
Well…I think that’s because we got used to it…the modern life gave us new
free time…there are dish washing machines, laundry machines, tv remote
controls…they all gave us new free time…but we don’t know what to do with
that free time!Or more precisely, we have TOO MANY ideas what to do with that
free time. So we’re giving ourself stress since we want to make the best out of
the time we’ve…and our whole life is structured in some way…at least that’s
what I feel…even when I lay in bed, I feel like I’m constantly short on time,
because there are current problems, running through my head, but just one plain
view on my clock near me shows me that I don’t have the time now to think about
the problems, it’s time to sleep…so I keep pushing the problems in front of
me and keep them always in a certain distance…but of course, they’re becoming
a big pile and sooner or later, it tumbles down on me…and I’ve to face a lot
of problems, which, if seen as a single prob, would have been easy to be
solved, but as a whole, they’re a mess, they’re already one big negative effect
on my(our) life…so why do we keep doing this? Why are we giving ourself such
artificial stress?

I think we
simply forgot how to “switch off” and just mellow out…maybe the big variety
of choices, that’s being offered by our modern civilization just overwhelmed
us…it’s proved by scientist that a big choice makes people insecure…while
if there’s only a simple choice(like black n white or rain and
shunshine),people can choose much easier…

So what’s
the conclusion here? Should we make life just more simple? And if yes, how
could we do that? Aren’t we all slaves of comfort in some way? Wouldn’t it be
so liberating if we’d just leave all our possessions and our property behind?
If you don’t own anything, you don’t have to worry about losing it…so you’d
have less stress…and you’d have less choices…cos choices come along with
wealth…or with the urge to reach a certain level of it…but that’s because
the hunt for money became mandatory already…without money, you can’t afford
food or shelter or warmth, etc…yet, how has it been a few hundred years ago?
Even now, there are still savages who live in the woods or deserts…they don’t
know about things like stress…cos they are free to make any decision…but
they’re infected by the “so called” blessings of the civilization…and just
look at the formerly proud empires or savages of yesterday…look at the Native
Americans…and how aren’t more than a bunch of booze hounds and casino owners
now…look at the Zulu in Africa or the Massai…and how they’re not more than
a tourist attraction…look at Tibet…look at the savages in Australia, South
America, Indochina…whenever they’ve been FORCED into civilization AGAINST
their will, it’s been their end in some way…you can’t say that ANYONE of them
feels better now or lives happily…

While in
the past, they didn’t have to worry about much, they could hunt for their food
and find shelter under big banana leaves and drink from unpolluted rivers,
they’re now forced to learn languages they don’t know and live in cultures they
can’t understand, in socities in which they aren’t accepted to work for things
they had for free before…is that progress?

And it
leads back to my question, stress, and how we keep our stress level high
without a clear reason…maybe it’s simply our trial to distract ourself from
the unpleasant truth that we’re all the victims of the ghosts we’ve invited…